4th phase

Cuts and blades with a touch of blood
run through her fingers like flood.
Blankness is all in her eyes
and a smirk lingers on her frail smize.

"I can be better than this", she says
after one too many glasses of craze.
As her vision starts to fade
this is where history is to be made.
Forget all the pain and the tears
his time is definitely not worth the years.
Some fun and food may be great
but neglect and nonchalance are at stake.


People can fake it for two months
poor girls fall for it, oh poor little ones!
Should have been more cautious
but hey, thank god it was the fastest.
I'll take this as a lesson
to remind myself to make the right decision
and make good progression
ditch the depression
go in the right direction
maybe one day, develop true affection.

For Yan Ru

I don't update my blog but when I do, I dedicate this post to you YR BEN (more like BEN DAN) <3

I know it must be tough to make such a huge decision in life and I am sorry I can't physically be there to give you a hug or a pat on that sweet ass cheeks but I promise to see you as soon as I land in Malaysia!

I miss our daily conversations( weird ass ones...) and stayovers with snapchats! (still have them on my Ipad ;) ) I wish you were here with me :(

I simply can't survive in taylors without you, you have coached me to become someone I want to be and achieve things I thought I could only dream of. Where I am now, I owe you a biggie! Damn it, I miss my best friend schooling with me :'(

I know you are able to make the right decision in your life and I hope you will gain the happiness you deserve out of it. Keep in mind that if there is anything you want to talk about, I am always a whatsapp message away :)


Vel xx