Fly Away

Huff and puff the wind blows
My hair, it's all over my face
I tucked it behind my ear
Windy day I must say
But it can't even be compared to the hurricane inside me

A flock of birds fly high in the sky
Some linger on the wooden bench I'm perching on
I am in deep thoughts
Wish there is a chance
For me to feel freedom
Free as the birds
Soar high and beyond
The mountains
The sea
The sky
No boundaries

Beanies, they keep me warm
Wrap around my head like your words
Look at those tender eyes
Glinting
Tears stream down the angel face
Is this how you want it to be?
If I ever have the chance
I would make a change
I may be too afraid
Or too careless
Or too prone to heartbreaks
But I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Brief and short
That is how people keep their words nowadays
Emotions, they don't exist
It is just a myth for people like us
Bundled up in feelings
Try to sleep through the night
It's a pillow of comfort
I can't bear to see the person I am tomorrow
Demons hover above my head
I try to always chase them away
But they keep coming back

Maybe time will turn
Show me what love is
I will look up to the sky
Bidding on the birds
Next thing I know
They are gone
I'm building a hot air balloon from scraps of my heart
If you have the fire
I'd ride it one day with you
and
We'll fly on

Inspired by Coldplay-Fly on (O) from Ghost Stories.

It's time to come out clean.

I have been struggling with family issues for more than a year now.

I can't help feeling helpless when it comes to solving the problem, as I don't think I have the guts to tattle-tale nor take initiatives.

It has been a habit of mine to just ignore and move on.
Inside me, every part of me, DIES.
Every fucking time.

You don't know the pain. You weren't there to see how I writhe in agony.
I flung uncountable tears, had trouble sleeping for so many nights as I kept replaying the scenes over and over again in my head.

Call me pathetic for pleading you to stop.
Call me nosy for being all up in your business.
But I have a say in these, stop ruining our family and DO THE RIGHT THING.


As to express the sorrows I have, 
I devised a poem to put my mind to rest.

Her world falls apart as she twirls into darkness, 
with a smug grin on her face thinking she's the greatest. 

I have tried to warn her about her wrong-doings, 
but she never listened.... She was too consumed by the idea of eloping.

Lies will soon be uncovered and exposed, 
for she will face the consequence as the story unfolds .

When that day comes forth with a surprise,
she will have nowhere to turn but meet a tragic demise.

Leave us all be, we are helpless victims of a broken home,
stuck in the world of confusion and lost hope.

I wish her well in her path of destruction,
I hope she will maybe one day, find realisation.

- Velyne 23.7.14 posted on Facebook as well.


Sometimes I wish to kill your device once and for all.

I want to be a little girl. YOUR LITTLE GIRL.
But you broke my heart.

I don't know what is love.

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Somebody tell me?

I take my shits seriously.

Issues keep coming.

I have to keep a straight face.

But it is going to be fine, right? Right?

I think I want to shut off from the world for awhile...

I'll come back when I feel better.

A Samsung Karma

I have been rebelling against my father for two weeks now.

Due to many issues and disagreements, we just couldn't come to a compromise.

Every minute for the past few weeks, I had been clenching my teeth uncontrollably because these thoughts had been flooding my mind, stressing me into bits.

Today, things are about to change.
*This ship is about to go down too, sorry for my informal language.



I went to the store to redeem a Samsung accessory of the value of RM200.

Picked today to do it because dad wasn't here with me.

Grabbed my receipts and all those junks and headed to the store feeling all hyped up because I could get anything I want without my dad telling me what to do.


So the salesman a.k.a biggest cheater in the world served me with all of his bullshit saying stuffs like YOU SHOULD GET A POWER BANK BECAUSE ALL CUSTOMERS GET THAT GOOD SHIT TO REDEEM THAT VOUCHER

He already sold me on that note because
1. My power bank kinda busted not too long ago and I needed a new one.
2. Power bank is white. I AM ALL ABOUT WHITE.

But of course, I do have some questions.
9000mAh ..seems legit.
Charges my phone 3 times per usage? Sounds amazing.
Needs 8 hours to charge fully? Standard, yes.

Wait....How much? RM279? Well...I didn't plan on spending more than the voucher but this power bank should fucking worth it.

Here comes the most important question.
Can it charge my ipad?

Salesman Mr.Dick said, "Sure, sure, anything."


and I am all like HELL YEAH NOW WE'RE TALKING HERE'S MY CASH

Talked to my dad on wechat and asked him if I should buy it, he said it was up to me though he thought it didn't worth it but I was like NEIN.

SWEGGED IT BACK HOME


Tested my phone, yes it worked.
Tested my ipad,

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

Not charging? WTF??!!
So, I examined the output's current and FUCK.

My fucking ipad needs a fucking larger output.





There you go, folks.
Listen to your daddy.

Dad's words were: SERVED YOU RIGHT.


BRB, crying now.

OKAY? OKAY.

I like these photos.